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Bye 2011 !

2011-12-31T21:48:00.000+08:00

Received a pretty silver planner from external working partner ! Kinda uh heavy to carry around to and fro office ? Well, i will still try to put it into good use ! :)

Had 3rd violin lesson since my long break after exam earlier. Well, my fingers still suffering from blisters after an hour or two of practice. Ouch.

There is less than two days to 2012 ! In a blink of an eye, I'm serving nearly four years in current company by next Feb !

January is an exciting month ! Exam, coursework due, CNY, blah. Oh yeah, my programme is scheduled to end by Oct ! Woohoo!

P.S. Realized how much simple words of encouragement helps to shift your paradigm. Thank you, my old friend.

Last day of Term 2 !

2011-10-30T23:10:00.000+08:00

Most wonderful exam mode for term 2. Management of Organisations was open-book exam. Cross Cultural Management was close-book exam as usual but 30 MCQ and 1 essay question. Though, we had a less than desired lecturer who was unable to deliver the lectures to our minimum expectations - at very least, to be familiar with the ppt slides and able to illustrate with examples.

Anyway, tomorrow will be the start of term 3, out of 6, Yay ! Collected course materials and of course it comes with the assignments and textbook and ppt slides.

I realised that exams suck my energy. Oh I need a lovely cup of iced milk tea.

It's approaching November !

2011-10-27T12:51:00.001+08:00

Drinking some magnolia plain milk ♥ I have a weakness for ah guu products :@ had a large cup of iced milk tea from MOS yesterday ♥

Thinking of learning Italian after my course ends by next Nov. :@

Actually, my expense manager reported that I have already spent close to $300 on family and shopping as of my third day after payday. Stop, girl, stop gmarketing now. Maybe New Look to help boost the economy directly.

I can hear someone trying not to stare too hard at my last statement and scream "WHAAAAAAAAT?"

HEHE. ♥

Cooking bee hoon soup soon ! Waiting for the chicken fillets to thaw completely >.>

I want to pick up horse-riding, hiphop, pilates classes ! :@

P.S. Not much joyful birthday mood for the Scorpio. Maybe it's because the number is getting higher, can't seem to save much after working for so many years thanks to the commitments and spending habit. I couldn't utilise my leave as freely as I used to, thanks to the need of exam prep and assignments. Most importantly, I need to go swimming more often. :(

Time to focus, girl.

2011-10-26T23:56:00.000+08:00

Okay I should get serious about my revision for Cross Cultural Management now. Exam on this sunday and I need focus.

Migraine loves to drops me a visit or press my bell once every few days recently. And it's a fresh new kind of migraine that makes me feel pain or pressure behind my left eye most of the time.

Anyway, I need to stop trusting people who seems to be a healthcare professional who draws blood. Apparently, I have been having terrible experiences and ended up with a bruise that only goes away after a week. Oh, I didn't fast btw, so no accurate results for cholesterol and blood sugar and something else.

Bought some groupon vouchers for hair colouring and spa @ just $69 xD Uh, and some mani pedi voucher some time back. Hmm.

Shopping ! :@

2011-10-26T15:37:00.000+08:00

Oh my, I finally gotten myself a white arc mouse ! Okay, waiting for my bag to arrive and placing order for dresses and mascara and cardigans ! Well, maybe it's not alright to shop that much after payday, but life's too short to worry till the next payday !

Here is a snapshot of my lovely 白老鼠：

两只老鼠 ~ 旧的不去，新的还是能来的 ♥

On the way !

O.O Transforming into bookworm

2011-10-21T13:34:00.001+08:00

Still working on 4th out of 16 chapters . :(
Yet to attempt the exam qns. Open-book exam urgh. That indirectly means that you have to prepare for every chapter. And Irish lecturers love to make you do that without specifying which are the core topics.

Thanks.

P.S.: Lessons taught us not to form unhealthy perceptions and blah blah reasons why not. Wake up and stop blaming us.

Focus, girl.

2011-10-20T23:39:00.051+08:00

Had a swim this morning. Initially, I was kinda excited with the no. of people in the indoor pool. Then, there is like half a dozen of kids that came along and behave like they were at a beach, playing with water and piggy back one another like a string of worms across the width of pool, taking their own sugary time. Managed to spend an hour doing lap swims, alternating between breaststroke and freestyle. It struck me - why are we learning to swim like a frog? -.- Anyway, I wanna learn butterfly stroke for the fun of it, not to the extent of developing broad shoulders.

Cooked a huge pot of soup after my swim and lil bro requested me to accompany him to the Acer Service Center to fix his lappy keypad at some Jurong international business park.

Anyway, here's my lovely pot of Chicken drummies soup with tofu and everything nice ! ♥

Apparently, his lappy's 1-year warranty will be ending in another two months. The staff replaced his keyboard and circuit board on the spot and informed that it suffered a functional failure. I like like, "What? So will it happen again?" Okay, he did not respond truthfully.

Let me reinforce - It was a weekday afternoon and there is a queue at the service center. Had bad experience for my previous desktop too. People, just stop looking at Acer products.

Lil bro randomly asked to take photos with his 'ideal' dream house in the background when we were looking for the bus stop. Apparently, that was an office building with some out-of-nowhere structure that popped out of the building at a high storey of it. We ended up behaving like some silly tourists. Lol. Seriously, they built a miniature suntec fountain of wealth (without the ring and 4 towers of cos) whatsoever in this industrial area.

I was experiencing some pain or pressure behind my left eye when we boarded the taxi and I had thought that my dry eyes led to such pain. I realised that it should be some migraine due to inflammation, stress or blocked sinus (thanks to some googling while trying to sleep off my migraine and fighting off the caffeine from the cup of coffee before leaving for the service center).

Trying to start my engine for the preparation of exam that will be held on this sun. Well, I am listening to recorded audio clips of the lecture and attempting to filter off irrelevant contents by a love-to-share Irish lecturer. Shall not wear white tops to make the footprints of Buddha that obvious.

Adios.

Hate to be sick

2011-10-16T23:16:00.000+08:00

First, flu hits me and cough remains.
Secondly, pain in the back visits me again.
Thirdly, aches in the back decides to stay on.
Currently, imminent pain in the abdomen and diarrhea.

Seriously, what is going on? And I have to be sick when I couldn't afford to.

Thanks.

Anyway, finally dragged myself for a swim with dear this afternoon. Pool was crowded with kids and people learning swimming at different awkward spots that hinder swimmers. It's getting irritating.

Well, managed to burn some calories and arms are leaner now. Heading to swim on thurs and hopefully fri too, if my swimsuit manages to brace itself and dry up in good weather *keeping fingers crossed*

P.s. Watch Smurfs online last night. La, LA, la.. LAlalaaaa ~ Sing a happy song !

My oh my

2011-10-14T01:53:00.003+08:00

Had a change of my Research Project lecturer due to his health condition. Worried for his health though. Lessons have been delayed. Developed an impression from my classmates that the new lecturer seems to be having a hard time to understand and trying to pick up where the previous lecturer has left off.

Not noticing much improvement to my vocal and cough after a month of bland (and not so bland at times) food. Two trips to doctor and completed two courses of medicine. Well, at least no more flu. Waiting to recover from my cough before getting a flu jab.

Planning to head down to the blood bank next month. It's truly time to find out what's my blood type after living out a quarter of my life. Give blood, give life. Who's with me?!

Finally finished a round of full day briefing on Wed. I repeated myself for umpteen times and to the extent of cutting off my lines without realising that I made no absolute sense at times. Well, at least I finally realise that speaking to a crowd about something that I'm familiar with is no big deal afterall. Perhaps it's just trying to get used to being the center of attention. Another round in the morning later. Hi, I'm still online.

Whenever I looked at the photos on my room's wall, mostly sec school photos, I realised how much I have grown and changed over seven years. I feel that my thinking and behavior at work seems to be so much older than I actually am. I was almost taken aback when I was reminded by my colleague again that I have yet to hit the double two mark (till 27 days later).

My, oh my.

Went to Gelare @ Vivo for some waffle ice cream with five other lovely colleagues. Tried macademia nut and oregon mint fudge and some chocolate flavors. Still love the mint fudge to the max !

We headed to Asian Kitchen @ Vivo B1 next. Food was 3.5/5 and price is reasonable. Around $10 per pax for 5 main courses and 2 desserts shared among the six of us.

The oriental style zha jiang mian was flavorful with minced pork, original fried rice was very fragrant and spicy fried beancurd with crushed peanut toppings. Pictures in other camera !

P.S. Oh, I was reminded by my colleague that 23rd October is next Sunday ! The very small deal is that I have yet to start my preparation for exams. Another exam on last sunday of the month. Gosh.

Okay my library books are overdue despite the SMS reminder. Praying hard that I am able to drag my tired feet to the library for some books that are not meant for projects. My love for reading and sports are replaced by work commitments. The current work-lifestyle is too overwhelming. I need my well-deserved rest. I need my personal time back. Too much has been taken away from me, yet I have gained much though.

The poor just gets poorer

2011-10-10T14:18:00.000+08:00

Oh great, our bank interest rates have been reduced. 0.05% pa? I nearly fell off my chair.

Oh I need to re-think about my savings plan, again.

Anyway, today's a great day to start on my plan. I simply love veg and fruit juice and swim and shopping. All these are great motivators, don't ya agree?

Old lesson

2011-10-05T20:23:00.009+08:00

Experienced how silly I can be when there's a lack of oxygen supply to my brain due to anxiety!

Saw the whatsapp msg by my classmates tt econs results are out. So I quickly logged o on to my email-just like what I have been doing every hour for the last two weeks.

I knew I will curse if the file download were to die on me. Well, it didn't. The next second,i forgot what is my student id ._. then,i was stunned at the word ungraded that was highlighted in yellow -ungraded for exam o.o Oh so I looked at the wrong result.

The best thing about Kaplan is that they collected tuition fees of private school rates but they need students to submit assignments in hard copy and results are released via an email from the course manager with an attached PDF file tt contains results of all students.

Ok I didn't fail. No D. Got a C for two essay qns which I completed in a hurry. Got B for main report for sth tt I have hardly any confidence at all. Finally, an A- for the exam which involves in plenty of kicks from the Buddha for hugging too much.

Seriously,i didn't carry much hope for econs. I haven't been reading the newspapers, no knowledge for econs and love to so last min work. The lecturer was pretty lenient though.

Time to recall what ms ong had reinforced time and again in upper sec - Don't be complacent, class!

Medicine

2011-10-04T14:06:00.000+08:00

Drowsy effect of flu med has kicked in.

Good night world.

Shall practise violin, do some work then revise studies later

At long last, ..

2011-10-04T01:42:00.000+08:00

Okay my dry throat is getting worse after popping so much pills. Irritated.

Munching tidbits while clearing some work. Can't be bothered anymore. There's BBQ this sun though :@@

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Finally done with my photoshop design. Ready to send for printing later ! :D

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My skin is getting worse. I need more rest, exercise and shorter office stay :@

Rants, again.

2011-10-01T16:51:00.003+08:00

Somehow my work place, readings, studies all taught me something in common - that is, to be tolerant and do not encourage unhealthy stereotyping.

I tried.

But I find myself waving the flag, curse and blast music into my ears.

I don't even bother to appreciate your slang or contents of conversation.
I used to survive outdoors without ear piece in Singapore. What can a normal civilian like me do to help the growth of singapore other than accepting their existence in our society?

Ok just ranting.

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Just finished project discussion with classmate at coffee bean. Had a cup of malibu dream. <3 it costs me 8.10 though ._. Still staying put in my seat while waiting for him :D

*increases music volume in the meanwhile. Irritated.

P.S. Bought HDMI cable and managed to get it working after some silly TV settings. Yay :X

Rants

2011-09-30T00:29:00.000+08:00

Why am I working on photoshop with 10 clicks just to select an appropriate function?

Okay just ranting. I'm pleased with myself for being able to work sth out for the event. Say cheese!

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Running out of savings soon. Just paid for 3rd installment tuition fees. I thought I had plenty of savings left to squander on autonomous spending but I'm so oh disappointed. Looks like I have to chew on more bread to prevent myself from spending more.

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Pissed. To think they are professionals and working adults. I'm going to find an available wall and bang against it.

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Okay this is so irrelevant but I'm boiling some cheese tofu while waiting for that fat pig to be behind bars or something for trying to cheat zhenhu's money :@ Oh, I don't crave for popcorn if melted cheese is missing from the serving bowl.

Crazy October

2011-09-28T00:48:00.000+08:00

Well, trying hard to stay on my schedules.

The past few weeks have been tiring with the projects and assignments and work and best of all, I fell sick.

Still trying to recover well enough for my mass briefing sessions in early Oct. But there's a report due on next Mon and the pressing issue is a simple stats analysis due later for a meeting.

Gonna have lessons on first two suns and exams on the next two suns. How tiring life can be at this point in time.

Been sneezing away and sniffing and coughing for the whole day. I simply need rest.

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Strolled along the streets of Orchard with Farhah last sun. Well, bought a few stuffs and spent a fair bit but I'd have to disappoint you that money was not spent on clothes or heels. Trying hard to keep an eye on my expenditures which I have been trying for the past few months but you guess it. Attempted to track my budget on pen and paper, excel and notebook on my HP. Well, guess a lil app like expense manager help heaps. :D Bless my success on this attempt :x

Craving for jap, thai, dim sum and crystal jade's la mian :@@@@ Most importantly, I missed swimming and gym! Given my current condition and weather, I shall cross my fingers that the needle on the weighing scale doesn't move any further to the east. (Okay, actually I'm using a digital weighing scale)

Finally, ...

2011-09-22T23:43:00.001+08:00

I'm so dead tired. Falling sick soon.

Going to nail parlour to pamper my hand and feet soon ! Main intention is to remove the calluses or corns and have a pretty pedi medi !!

It's finally end of working week. Still struggling with expatriate interview report and analysis. Oh well, it's due on the 3rd of Oct.

Love my black heels and I need to find myself some gel foot padding. The ball of my feet and high arch isn't too foot-wear friendly.

Just had my 6-month interim performance conversation with my two bosses this afternoon. Well, expectations are being reinforced and messages conveyed. A fruitful session :)

P.S. I'm so oh waiting for my econs results that should be available by next week. Fingers crossed. Well, I'm already looking at buying a decent violin to reward myself without waiting for the bonus payout (couldn't wait! Instruments need to be 'seasoned' by playing it regularly. So, why the wait?) :@@

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My classmates are also planning to save up for the graduation ceremony that will be held in Dublin, Ireland in following February. Thereafter, we intend to take a flight over to UK since it's just a distance away ! Oh, so very excited !! Okay, as I mentioned to Peng - "When you combine travel to two countries and spending is in GBP, you get to see the sky through the hole in your pocket"

I seriously, couldn't wait for my studies to be done and over with ! My to-do list just keep piling and I need my rest before wrinkles and more fine lines decide to apply for citizenship on my face. Oh, driving license will be the next dish following my graduation HEHE

Year-end Resolution

2011-09-20T19:43:00.008+08:00

Pledges to reach office by 8 am or rather, no more lazing in bed for activities, appts, work from tmr onwards.Tired of having excuses slapping back.

Time to reorganise my schedule for balanced lifestyle. 21 Sep as a great day to bid farewell to tired face, lazy body, ill prepared brain is a big no no.

Well, turning 22. Perfect Time to get organised. :@

Oh, I'm so determined to leave my hair alone except fringe of cos till it's good time for some hanky panky

Gonna drop by orchard (esp h&m!) with farhah this sun ! long while since meeting up with dear old fren :)
May ah guu bless me with the power to control my shopping sin ! <3

P.s. Getting acuvue define lens soon. With those recent so-called product defects or contamination these days, I rather pay than blind myself by a touch of bad luck.

Studies

2011-09-02T01:36:00.001+08:00

Working on cross cultural management project.

Expatriate interview on 5th Sep.

Pre-course assignment for cross cultural mgt due on 9th Sep.

Project discussion on management of organisations on 2 following weekends.

2 exams in Oct.

Be grateful and move on.

P.s. Heading to Genting later in the night. Woohoo? My feet still hurting from the lovely scratches by that pair of wedges.

Life

2011-08-31T16:15:00.000+08:00

Experiencing sharp pain in my lumbar spine again.

Thanks to the lovely 7th lunar month that followed the busy months, I haven't gone for my swim for an awfully long while.

Thanks to the weather that people loves waking up in, it doesn't work well for me. I will wake up in aches and pain that may last for few days. Oh, I'm so experiencing the ageing effect prematurely.

Anyway, I'm done with my Management Research Proposal, ready for submission by tonight. Wore my newly bought m)ophis wedged sandals to library and ended with scratches thanks to the pretty black crystals and unfriendly strap. Feel the sizzling pain when water touches the skin. Shioka?

September is approaching, that was fast. Xmas will come ringing and it will be time to bid farewell to 2011. What have I achieved? Looking back, I embarked on my degree programme in May and hit the walls here and there, noticed some personal growth and made more friends during my course.

Fulfilling enough for the moment :)

Small things that go a long way

2011-08-22T01:50:00.001+08:00

Women do want their partner to realise that they need appreciation and their feelings to be reciprocated. There is also a need to fulfil their sense of security that they will not be taken for granted overtime by displaying less than desired behaviors or attention. I believe that men sure have such worries too.

When things go wrong, both parties could respond and make the first move by apologising or eating the humble pie - it doesn't kill you by doing so and certainly do not cost you a cent except for the data charges for whatsapp or call charges.

When it comes to apologising, please be informed that every individual have their 'accepted mode of apology'. To some, it may take a hand-written note, an sms or a call. To others, it may take gifts or cooling period. Yet to a few others like myself, it take a face-to-face explanation to systematically address the root cause(s) and make sure the person marks the incident and doesn't repeat his/her actions or words.

It takes an extra effort to keep things going. It's certainly heartwarming to see how old couples on the streets hold holds while having a walk or an old lady shouting at her old man for crossing the road while it's obviously "red man" being shone with blinking green arrows signalling the vehicles to move from other direction before "green man" is out or old friends remaining in close contacts while enjoying companionship of long friendship.

Learn from expectancy theory - put in effort for the desired outcome where things don't just oh happen by chance. In relationships, you may pretend that things are still well as before but root cause is being ignored. So people, don't take the people around you for granted. Humans are after-all social creatures that need relationships to keep themselves going.

Bad, bad dream

2011-08-14T09:51:00.000+08:00

Had bad dream last night. I dreamed that Peng died and forgotten about us and hates me for indirectly causing her death o.o Somehow our photo collages appeared and she have ferocious looks in our photos but not in her own narcissistic pics ._.

Shall elaborate further. Rushing out my project and violin lesson and meeting up teamies for project discussion later. Busy busy day.

Maybe that's how I ended up with flu this morning.

Mad crazy

2011-08-12T01:21:00.000+08:00

Too many deadlines, too little time.

It's freaking September soon and I need to find out my career aspirations fast for an hour conversation with bosses. It will be hectic September and October, being my job's peak period. Adding to it, I will be having two exams in October. Oh great.

P.s. Going to Genting in September. Needa get a new HP portable charger from G. Just a few uses and I have passed the verdict that it's ready for the dump. Silly $18 spent on inferior charger and I'm gonna scream WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT?!

Good for viewing, stay away from services

2011-08-09T23:53:00.004+08:00

Hi, it's Singapore's 46th Birthday. I was not dressed in red and white but spotted with star-shaped ear stud. That's all.

Had plans to do assignment and projects, go for a swim, practise my violin all in a day - you guess it.

Went to Synwin Marina with Peng and Adam for replacement of poor Amberlynn Jackson's bridge. I know for sure that the force is still in my blood.


On the bus to Suntec

While having lunch @ Olio Cafe, we found out from our violin teacher that we need to buy a bridge and she "can fix for free ha ha". 'WHAAAAAAAAT" was my response at her reply after I was quoted $80 for service fee excluding cost of bridge at Synwin. Thanks Peng for telling Kendra that. She called immediately to clarify things ._.

Anyway, the food served at Olio was unexpectedly good. Had chargrilled boneless chicken and iced mocha with gelato. Will return for the service and good food.

Oh, Peng drew a star on her face with black eyeliner. I'm more of a fan of glittery drawings or mini cosmetic jewel stickers on my eye area though. Shall G after next pay is in :@

My half day was a wasted trip to Synwin and ending up getting ripped to fix a thin lil violin bridge. Well, we retrieved the violin and going to Gramercy @ Tanjong Katong after work tomorrow to get it fixed at $30 instead and it can be done in approx two days compared to Synwin which needs 10 - 14 HA-HA. Therefore, the shop is good for viewing its musical products and such but stay away for purchases or services. TY.

Hehe we had Yami yogurt and it tastes as heavenly good ! :D

Say hi to Skullie

Though pretty late, but just be good and say hi to Skullie :D

P.S. You-should-know-who is still as rude and BFL after so many years. Well I don't really care. Just stay away from my tail. Oh, your combination of twit and limited vulgarities are plain disgusting.

Casuale uno

2011-08-04T23:16:00.001+08:00

Affidare qualcuno con il potere di distruggere voi, credendo che non lo faranno.

Cambia le persone, chi non?

Post scriptum. Periodo del mese.

Happy 9th year anniversary

2011-07-31T01:13:00.000+08:00

It marked the 9th year into my friendship with Peng, someone whom I knew since Secondary School and life would never be the same without her.

We grew up together in our second phrase of life in a way - from joining her in gaming (good oldie runescape days, maple and some cafe world), experiments with cosmetics, shred ultra-nerdy looks, shopping, doing crazy stuff like drunk on slurpee after o's, geylang for food till near evening to watching first (and 3D) sex movie recently and NRIC was checked (I shall choose to feel flattered by deciding such checks are subjective) as well as personality.

hehe here's to our 9th golden year :

Age

2011-07-14T23:59:00.001+08:00

Audit is finally over! On leave tmr to prepare myself for the exam on Sun. Crazy life.

Rushed to sch to collect my student card required for exam and managed to do so just when the staff has packed up and seemed all ready to go. Seriously, I regretted submitting that photo that I took three years ago that I used to attach to my resumes, now on my student cards. I looked too decent for the current me :S Uh, not to mention the die-hard flat tied hair. (Oh, I finally own student cards!)

Went to New look and tried on a tee, top and two dresses, not forgetting some heels.

Bought a pink top and put back one white dress that was too translucent. I thought I would be able to grab something new for my work :( It is simply tiring to think about what to wear when you have limited wardrobe that flatters your appearance when you are gaining weight due to OTs and studies.

Walked down 19 levels of stairs for fire drill exercise last morning. Guess what, most of us suffered from leg cramps on the next morning and I have tiger balm medicated plasters to kill the pain. It's no joke.

Looked around PS Yamaha and spotted basic violins that cost less than 200 bucks ! To think I bought my suzuki violin that was made of 'beginner wood' (pls equip your staff with basic product knowledge, tyvm) and sent for repair works which cost me more than $350 in total which was a big rip off.

Budget is getting tight for myself and family. Yet so much on my to-buy and to-do lists.

Less than 4 months to my birthday. Sec sch life seems further now and mid 20s is waving at me. Soon, I will receive a letter notifying that I should change my NRIC photo for free.

Nostaglic, and crazy life

2011-07-01T00:56:00.001+08:00

Silly, silly system. I had made an appointment for scaling/polishing at a dental clinic. Okay I was late for 30 minutes. But I ended up waiting for 3 hours for a 15-minute cleaning where I was told of an urgent wisdom tooth extraction. I knew that that dentist was more experienced when he finished the scaling/polishing in halve the time needed by Q&M dentist. And and, I was told that I have wisdom teeth emerging. The thought of extraction is giving me the shivers.

During my wait, I was entertained by Ch8 programmes which I haven't been catching up since my 1st year of work. In my 2nd hour of waiting, my toes were attacked by some middle aged woman and I didn't get an apology from her (either her shoes were so thick or my toes were that insignificantly tiny).

Moments after, she asked if I had made an appointment and I shared with her that I have been waiting for like 2 hour-ish. When asked upon why aren't I frustrated by the waiting, I realised that I was too relaxed and enjoying some silly ch 8 show while waiting. I stared back to the monitor as I'm simply not interested in commenting further about the clinic's appointment system and I have no wish to think about some possible improvements that could be considered for the clinic.

Then, I heard irritable noises that she made due to frustration from the tsk and footwear. But hello, I have been waiting like a silly for more than two hours. Uh, I tsked involunteerily.

Finally, I was called into the room after I was told that I will be the next in line which was followed by another 50 minutes of waiting.

Asked about braces. I will be charged like $4.8k for approx 18 months braces that claims to cause least inconvenience compared to the traditional 2-year braces that simply cost 400 bucks cheaper.

Well, I was advised by my fellow colleague to get some referral letter and open my mouth under the glaring lights at the lovely NDC. Gonna check the rates out but the availability of appointments is a big factor to consider.

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I realised that I needed SOME time to get my engine running for assignments, work or studies. Here I am, trying to do something more constructive than reading some junky yahoo news that have been up lately.

Hi, it's 1st of July, 2011. Another 4 weeks before hitting 9th year with dear Peng. During my spring-cleaning (after donkey years), I uncovered some old neoprints that we took in Sec 4. Yeah, the shots that we took way back then had given me a different feel compared to those that we have taken in recent years - we didn't give a damn to how we looked, or at least we thought we look presentable in our early days of makeup attempts. (Ha!)

Our poses for the photos; not much consideration were on angles or for close-prefect expressions. Loving and reminiscing the past moments.

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3 years of working as a full-timer office charbor has helped in my personal and professional development. I realised that I can crap my way (okay, think on my feet) through random audit interview by my supervisor in prep of the hospital-wide tri-yearly audit. And I have been offered an opportunity (I'm positive, thank you) to sit-in the audit to provide on-site support for the generation of system records on the 14th.Excitinnnnnnnnnnnng ~

I have short and long-term plans lined up in my head (and failed to put on paper).

Goals like taking up hip-hop class, horse-riding, tennis, archery, tango, making overseas trips, hanging out with bestie and old buds as well as seeking greater improvement in violin-playing have been on hold or not realised with the invasion of silly intensive studies into my already 24-hours-not-enough-life till the next October.

I had and have to cancel plans, sacrificed and sacrifice more time with beloved family, friends and dear for work, studies and violin practice. I have not been touching my guzheng for close to a year (fearing for some creepy bugs that are eyeing or have attacked my lovely woodie baby) and lost trips to the gym and pool.

I'm only two months into my studies and there is another 16 months to go. I'm already crossing my fingers as I expect some conflict along the way. I believe I can survive. Have faith, people.

P.s. This kind of lifestyle is making me less healthy by each passing day. Jidan. I shall work harder on my so-called work-life harmony after my exams in last week of July. Not that I'm unaware of my second term that will commence in mid August where pre-course assignments will be due.

Silly things

2011-06-26T22:37:00.001+08:00

2 papers in July, but one main assignment will be due on the 4th. Pre-course assignments will be following closely behind which will be due in August, and lectures for the new modules will resume till end August. Main assignments and exams and this cycle shall repeat for another 4 terms till next Oct/Nov.

Maybe I shouldn't whine much, it's just a 18-month Honours programme - enough time to allow decisions and same track as others who completed poly studies and private inst like SIM for yet another three years of youth.

Placed an order for 2-door bookcase (black wood !) which will be delivered on wed ! Next big ticket item will be braces and a decent violin after I'm good with the finger placement, probably in 2012?

Maybe I can just smash it after some rock performance and get a new one :D

Ordered a silly back casing for my galaxy s and paid like $18 for the shipping from US simply because of that silly ebay seller who was 'only' able to offer shipping to limited countries. That casing cost me like $5 btw. Still waiting impatiently for it to arrive and it better not disappoint me.

Work has been piling high but I've been neglecting rest and time for myself over the past three years of my life. Time flies and events have been spurred by factors that is both inside and outside of my circle of influence - pretty frustrating and I shall not elaborate.

Life.

2011-06-24T01:16:00.001+08:00

I have been overspending every single month, and I meant it. Time to exercise more control over my splurging on random stuff and taxi fares.

Attended a chamber music concerto "I Musici" with Peng that was held at SOTA concert hall on 12th. It was an amazing performance and the musicians were surprisingly cute. Encored like three times? Enjoyed it nevertheless and we got to know Antonio ! Of course, starting to fall in love with Antonio Vivaldi pieces.

Itzhak Perlman is another violinist whom I admire. And I would kill to play a Stradivarius violin for maybe just once :/

Went to a wake of a colleague's family member this evening. Earlier, I have heard from my colleague who managed to find out what had happened. It doesn't take long for one to understand the simple idea behind life and death. That is, to treasure and show appreciation to those while we still have the chance to. Allow others to reciprocate by being receptive and making the first move. Somehow, some people just need more time or something has to happen before realizing.

Why is there a need to show anger or frustration on someone who doesn't deserve it in the first place? It hurts. Show empathy. Perhaps the working environment changes its people.

~ Counting down to a year with dear and followed by 9th year with Peng <3

Peace

2011-04-19T21:28:00.001+08:00

As time passes, as I experienced more, I learnt to better control and conceal my emotions. But I began to realise that I feel insecure easily. Perhaps it's within me, but I'm learning to let go to feel peace at heart.

No regrets, no hard feelings, it's time to live for myself. Dependence, independence and interdependence are just stages of personal development. I'm just a tad bit late, and through the hard ways.

I'm attaining enlightenment.

~
Finally went to the gym for a workout after months of otings. Was on the bike for close to 30 mins, followed by treadmill for the next half an hour.

Planning to swim tmr evening if I am not in for cramps, which is highly impossible. For I'm a person who's lazy to warm up before exercising.

Ahead

2011-04-18T00:07:00.000+08:00

My orientation is on next monday's evening. Lectures starting in May. Whatever limited time I'm left with will be further reduced.

I realised that I tend to procrastinate. And I need some pressure to keep myself from distractions. Perhaps the realization came a tad bit late, I've too much backlog to clear at work. Nevertheless, hope that the additional role and pressure of a student help in managing my mind better.

Another goal of mine, is to clear whatever outstanding stuff at work to the extend that I could be absent for long periods without worries, such as medical reasons, leave, or even resignation. Though, I have yet to entertain such thoughts. But it's good to ensure that work is cleared and you receive your salary with clear conscience.

Kendra got me a stack of violin scores. And she helped to sort the scores in accordance to the level of difficulty while I was playing the exam pieces. I managed to tidy and slot in file with clear pockets that were bought from daiso. Lovely deal and popular sells the same file at like nine bucks?

P.s. Maybe I'm overly sensitive and insensitive. But that hurts.

April

2011-04-01T00:51:00.000+08:00

With the busy month of April that has approached, I'm trying hard to complete my work and rest early.

After 3 years into the job, I truly envy those who could knock off on time with less challenging job nature. I couldn't even do the things I like, fulfill my promise that I made to hang out with bestie. At times I feel like resigning and get a life by finding a slower paced job. But giving up isn't the solution. As the old saying goes, heavy workload is expected for big organisation like this.

Starting lessons soon. I have received an email from the course coordinator if there is any request for study group formation. Well well, I didn't manage to find any familiar name in the list. TIme to make new friends and fingers crossed.

I simply need some rest.

April and beyond !

2011-03-24T01:23:00.000+08:00

Have been sleeping after 1 am for the past two weeks. Cabbing home after 10 pm is making me poorer. All work no shopping no chilling out with old friends is turning me crazy and age faster. Meh.

Starting school in end April. However, the rest of the months shall remain busy, it's just the difference between busy, busier and busiest periods.

Why am I still hanging there, anyway? 3 years into the job and I only took up violin in Oct 09. I had many plans which I didn't realise - take up hiphop, tango, learn cycling, overseas trip blah. And I regretted not working on those earlier. Well well.

At the very least, I'm finally starting on my studies and say hi to 18-month stunt, again. I'm looking forward to gaining a solid and structured concept but the thought of examinations, assignments and more deadlines are definitely not pleasant.

P.S. I realise that I have a fetish for buying and using new things. Oops :@

Looking back

2011-01-06T19:23:00.004+08:00

11th February marks my third year in a regular full time job. I figure that I might be invited to lunch with my manger, but hopefully not.

Many changes have occurred during this time.

I took up violin in Oct 09 and passed my grade 3 exam in last July. I found new direction and interest in life, thankfully, in the nick of time.

In the areas of work, I grew and developed in networking, language, presentation, thinking and maybe more. I have colleagues whose hearts are warm and true. I have seniors who are always there.

I have old friends who still remember and celebrate my birthday and glad that our friendship is still going.

I met someone who cares for me and plans for our future together.

I have a family that I can count on during good and bad times and tolerate my silly behaviours when I was young, after fights over lil things.

I befriended someone eight years ago who made an impact on my life. Life would not be the same without her. We hanged out after school where we never ran out of money except for a lobster incident. We gamed during tests and exam periods, even during prelims and o's. We copied hw and I cheated during number pattern class tests with her help. We drank before we are of legal age. We were drank on slurpee following the release of o's results. We did crazy stuff like sharing a bottle of hair dye where it's obviously not enough for my thick, long mane then, and I ended up in reporting to sch for some silly sessions in golden patchy hair. We would make few trips to the fitting room to try out dozens of clothes and ended up not buying any or just an item and piss the staff off. We would try dozen pairs of heels and resisted the urge to buy them at all three outlets.

Crazy stuffs we used to do together, when we were still in that young state of mind.

With influences and development to our thinking throughout the years, our mindsets changed with time and characters were shaped that anchored the development of the relationship.

Why ?

2011-01-05T23:42:00.006+08:00

Mc today. 5 years of aches and pain. When will I wake up without those on a rainy day especially? I was told to return at 230 as the doc has gone for lunch. So, I decided to make full use of the hour wait for eyebrow trimming, face threading and cleansing. It has been such a long while and I missed the days of flawless skin - it won't be irritated by the threading and it'll be as smooth and fair as an egg.

Went into the doc's room with a blank mind and began replying him in a slang. That was fun zz

Bought some fruits and rojak and walked home with a bare face under the raging sun. Good weather and it felt like life years back which I missed terribly.

I was tidying my room today. And not quite done after 5 hours.
I found stuff that I didn't know those even exists, and even mails received from polys after o's and mags and mails left unopened, some stuff that are useful.

Sweet, old memories.

Simple notes from my amos honey written on paper generated from the cashier for printing as receipts.

Bday gifts from you that included a simple pokey star bracelet that managed to irritate you enough to scream 'who is the wu gui that bought this?! The sharp points of the stars hurts !'

I'm tired.

Whatever.

2011-01-04T15:20:00.003+08:00

This is just so fucked up.

Excuses.

Whatever.

2011 ! Start afresh like the calendar did

2011-01-01T23:01:00.005+08:00

Watched Gulliver's Travels with Dear before catching the fireworks @ Marina Sq. A comedy movie with a moral - There's no small job, only small people.

Spotted traffic police helping pedestrians to jaywalk to get to suntec/mrt station after countdown. lol

My lousy skin is up to no good when it comes in contact with fashion accessories made of silver -.-

Tourist in Singapore

2010-12-28T17:29:00.004+08:00

Spent the past three days walking and exploring Singapore like a tourist. Woke up with sore feet but glad nevertheless. Hmm, had buffets and heavy meals. I'm having mixed feelings about my weighing machine where its batteries had died on me since last week. Enough of steamboats at the moment, but I might allow a possible exception to laksa streamboat @ Telok Blangah.

List of places visited (for what I could remember):

Lost in Changi Airport in an attempt to look for Budget Terminal ._.

Lot 1

Jurong Bird Park

Merlion Park

Suntec twice

Marina Square

Esplanade twice

Orchard Central (Sky garden)

Streets of Orchard

313 Somerset

Bugis (& tried streamboat ramen just opp Tian Tian)

Ngee Ann City/Taka (erks seoul garden ._.)

Gotten a 100% polyester fleece jacket @ Uniqlo at mere $19.90 ! (UP. $49.90) Well, I'm starting to fall in love with the grey/purple instead :( And Dear was super excited in his jacket lol. Oh, and there were two monks shopping for the jackets. Wth?

Chain

2010-12-27T01:01:00.006+08:00

Tried a few pairs of heels at suntec new look last evening and couldn't find that dress I've my eyes on few months ago. I was then reminded of peng's suggestion to invest in a pair of stilettos and parade before ppl who stepped on my tail and who also happened to be of shorter height than me, amen. Made me lol.

~

Visited Jurong bird park this afternoon, and the wow factors are world of darkness, where it was an enclosed simulation of the owls' habitats. Love the pair of snowy owls and they are as white as snow! And we have another pair of owls which kept changing poses for our camera, perhaps they were trained? Oh they are so fluffy!

It was a fun weather, for we donned raincoats bought from daiso in view of the monsoon season. The rain just comes and go. Great. A good alternative to brollies and the bird park sells at $5. -.-

Headed to bugis next and spotted a cart stall that sells few items on jack! Dear asked if they sell jack's head in the form of cushion and they do! So that's my xmas present! X) ps. The head is a little small though @@

It was followed by dinner where we had steamboat at bugis. Oh, the tomyam is good but nothing's great about the dishes. Thereafter, we went for a few rounds of pool before heading back. Uh, I was basically dozing off during bus and taxi trips. Didn't join in the rounds though.

Chain factors and events. Time to add as of the general principles to live by.

Merry Xmas '10 !

2010-12-26T01:57:00.003+08:00

had dept and division xmas celebrations earlier this week, had laksa steamboat with colleagues on wed too. Oh, the cheese tofu is nice! Craving for it again! Gonna patronize again but both laksa and steamboat doesn't widen his eyes .

Had my hair trimmed by dear's bro this afternoon just outside his house. man, that was fun xD

However, my natural waves are back yet again. And there is a tie mark though I haven't been tying my hair for years except for gym and swimming sessions. Wonder if I could ever be completely free my hair from chemicals. Gonna seek psychological relief from a reliable hairstylist by next week. I'm still trying to crystallize my decision on my next hairdo.

Seen quite a number of xmas trees and deco during this xmas. I guess that I've finally started to free myself from that silly self proclaimed santarina of her hohoho and horrible singings of xmas songs, after like 5 years?

Anyway, I missed swimming! And rmb about the swimming complex just across the road of tower that my office is situated? Apparently, my colleague shared that the complex is managed by an australian swimming school that only grant access of the pools to their students. Disappointed zz

When the rainy season doesn't help.

2010-12-21T15:12:00.005+08:00

Have been tied down with preparations for system downtime @ work. Required to report to work on 2 Jan - there goes my rest day and nothing has been communicated on worker's compensation. Great.

Guess all I want now is at least a day free from everything and doing what I have always wanted to, and spend at least a day each with my beloved ones.

The above shall form part of my resolutions for 2011.

~
It's time for you to take me seriously, or be gone.
Unless you can convince me with your explanation on the change in attitude, or forget it.

♥ Gmarket

2010-12-15T21:10:00.000+08:00

Xmas .. Time to start on the preparations of present x.x

uh. There's a deserted swimming complex just opposite my office building. There have been some works going on and it seems positive of a re-open anytime soon! Couldn't wait to jup in after work like 3 tines a week xD I had my last swim before the start of 7th month. Misses swimming @@

And yes, I smell year-end sales xD I'm having my eyes on new look xD that black top is still on my mind but it was ard $70 then :( *pokes peng*

Time to start on spring cleaning and rid the bugs and dust. Gonna get an air purifier or something thereafter.

P.s. spent more than $200 on shopping on gmarket last month. I'm addicted to gmarket ! =x

Say hello to December!

2010-11-30T22:03:00.002+08:00

2010 is coming to an end soon.

Time to get registered for my bachelor in jan or feb. *crosses finger*
Gotten Tangs vouchers from dad. The thought of shopping excites me tt
m!

December is gonna be another busy month. Aiming for merit for grade 4 violin.
Uh. And I've yet to prepare xmas presents for the children who have behaved themselves since the last xmas!

And my room is still in a mess, maybe it has became messier.

Having a dental appointment tmr.. and I absolutely missed my swimming sessions! Silly weather!

Spring cleaning time

2010-11-25T00:32:00.003+08:00

Time for spring cleaning. My room is kinda messy. Gonna clear out all possible hiding places for unauthorized living things like roaches. ._. I realised that I never did any spring cleaning since I moved to this house. And that was approximately 14 years ago? I'm a pro xD

Needa work on 2 Jan 2011. I demand my OT pay -.-

I enjoyed my day away from work. Watched more than ten ep of "Cruel Temptation" with an aching back. Hi.

8 hours of sleep during weekdays weakened me. So here I am, still wide awake when it's just Thursday.

Wee.

Life is great ♥

2010-11-23T17:43:00.002+08:00

I smell money xD The feeling of bankruptcy is traumatic.

Currently glued to "Cruel Temptation" and "Secret Garden".

Life is great. I see light. xD

I yearn for a swim x.x

Recent ongoings in my grey matter.

2010-11-22T00:53:00.005+08:00

Hi, I'm a bankrupt soon.
The sense of financial insecurity is depressive. Adding on, a 20k degree programme is suffocating enough.

Just received my first credit card. Attempts of activating it is dangerous enough.

Went to ION newlook with Farhah yesterday. UH NEW HEELS ! I sense pain @@ Saw good offers on accessories and clothes @ Far East. Well, pig dear, I WANT SWIM !

P.S. Carving for more jap ! Sashimi sashimi ! Uh, fats.

Time .

2010-11-19T00:18:00.004+08:00

Now I'm smelling December. But I have tons of work and goals left undone and unachieved. I feel a golf club aiming at my head, ready to give a shot anytime.

I had always thought that I would love partying. But I realised that I am more contented with my current life. My favourate past-times. Doing silly things in a quieter environment and with individuals whom reciporates my appreciation and company.

However, I still love dressing up and dazzle the streets - when I'm ready.

P.S. Oh, I've turned 21 and it's Nov 2010. Yipeeeeeeeeee. Time is running short.

Missing Peng. I imagine her riding the waves, on board of course.

~ Just cut my fingernails. Shiokness.

Preparations!

2010-10-27T18:47:00.002+08:00

I'm smelling November.. That reminds me of turning 21. I recalled that I had wanted to have a huge party for my 21st. Well, it turns out that I loathe playing host and I will smell something burning.

Thinking through, I still have tons of stuff to do before commencing on a tiring 18-mth journey for bachelor prog. Hmm..

~
Last Thu, 21st
Went to suntec kuishinbo with Peng and Grace for an hr lunch buffet. had tons of beef tepanyaki, soft shell crab, and of cos salmon sashimi! The melon-greentea icecream is refreshing, self-cordiated soda.. Well, good value and food is not bad. Still prefer himawari @ bkt merah safra though.. Maybe shall head there aft getting dec bonus xD

Went to kbox and had a mad time. It had been years since I last visited kbox. The last few trips were with frog at hg plaza kbox. Well, I applied for its lifetime membership for just $10. Gonna receive some bday perks in the bday month. Yeah and that was why I applied o.o

Had koi. Seriously, hazelnut is still my love. But I shall stick to the augar level @ 50% next time. Oh, and gong cha is a good alternative!

~
Last Fri, 22nd
Went for a late night k session with my colleagues at Topone ktv, bugis. Well, bad experience with their service management, and limited k/j pop songs, kinda negative environment. Not gonna visit the place again.

Stayed from 11+ till 5am. That was how hiong we are. Anyway, most of us turned zombielike on our way home and slept till evening!
Uh. Not gonna do that again though. Burnt my weekends x.x

~
So gonna get a haircut with a kimage voucher tmr. And followup with hairdye! Hmm. Still have un-utilised threading services by vamps. X.x

Change .

2010-10-25T23:16:00.002+08:00

That moment struck me hard. I think I understood now.

Plans after this silly period !

2010-10-07T01:13:00.003+08:00

Went to New Look @ Suntec with Peng last sunday .

Had fun trying out clothes and heels after so long ! Women are definitely victims of shopping . Had thai food for lunch, yami yogurt with sunflower seeds as toppings and kinda regretted my decision -.-
Bought two pairs of earrings and exchanged with Peng. We shall end up creating a fashion statement with a heart and round shaped earrings on each ear. o.O

We bought rings too ! And it says, "Forever Love"

And bought a big furry jap spitz HP accessory. Wanted a white piece, but it is only available for keychains. Ended up with a grey piece instead but it received abuse in office today -.-

~

Shall dye my hair and have hair treatment at end of this month - after my administration of hundreds of documents and clearing super backlogs.

Shall go for swims and gym next week. And time to pick up my violin again next week too ! Practising grade 4 pieces at grade 3 standard is a big joke.

Having a PPA session next Friday x.x

2010-09-29T18:32:00.002+08:00

If time and distance is all you need for now, I will wait.

I will not bother you, till you feel that you are ready to re-explore our friendship again.

We can.

2010-09-29T15:37:00.003+08:00

Why would you want to end our friendship?

You have said that things were not like before. Yes, I feel it when you got closer with your girls and I was not involved during this period.

Everything simply happened. I have my doubts. Is it your attempt in adjusting to life without me?

If that's really the case, I want to tell you that I still yearn for your companion, just like before. A typical day at 313 enjoying maggi moo after trying out dozens of clothes and shoes at New Look in our makeup. Or a typical day at the sengkang pool swimming laps after laps in the competitor pool followed by gossiping in the jacuzzi.

I still yearn for your friendship. A typical night lazing on your bed, laughing our heads off or scaring our wits out.

I missed that. We can do it, again. And all I need is a talk with you, or perhaps you need more time to re-consider.

Chance

2010-09-28T18:00:00.000+08:00

Yes, I'm not you and I couldn't possibily understand or feel the same way as you are.

We both missed and love the past, but we haven't been working together to re-plan our current schedule and needs since the change occurred in July. But both of us have mistakingly thought that the ongoing changes would be permanent and you would want to let it go at this moment 'to make things easier'.

All I ask for is to have a talk with you to resolve all the issues once and for all.

This is not just about our friendship, but it will also be the way you will be handling your friendships with others. Are you going to do the same thing to your other relationships?

I fully understand that the changes could be overwhelming. But giving up on a friendship that was not built in a day or two without trying again will be the most insensible option.

你不知道的事

2010-09-27T22:18:00.003+08:00

Now it's time to tell you, stop making assumptions.

I don't "drop you messages when I only remember about you ages later" - I visit your blog and facebook wall few times daily for your latest update, because I didn't hear from you too.

But if I had left even silly comments, if I hadn't kept myself from sms-ing you, would things have been better now?

Maybe I'm too used to you too - so much that I feel uneasy when I'm being left out of your girls' outings, that I'm somehow not as involved in your life as before. Perhaps this has kept me away.
But I will definitely join in if it's in the evening of weekdays, or weekends, or if you had informed me maybe just a week earlier, I will be able to plan out my work and apply for leave.

I know just how spontaneous you are - but sometimes my schedule just couldn't keep up. Things could be worked out, by both of us, and don't let individual situations dictate how we are going to run our more-than-friendship.

Galaxy

2010-09-27T00:39:00.002+08:00

Got a Samsung Galaxy S @ Hello! Compass last evening. Well, not after a wait of approximately 3.5 hours with intervals of travelling to and fro my place and compass with dear. Sad to announce that this honey managed to secure a lock on my finances for this month when it's only the second day after payday. Thanks very much, there goes my shopping sprees.

~

Turning 21 soon. Things have been evolving, not very much to what one can expect.
I'm truly wondering on what is happening to her. I couldn't help but wonder if I'm one of the parties involved.

Well, I have been having sinful meals with dear. Time to hit the gym and pool and achieve my target before my 21st.

Appreciation

2010-09-16T15:12:00.004+08:00

Yes, I have fallen sick - just when I have cravings for tom yam and I managed to squeeze some time for gym and swim !
Sore throat and flu, light-headedness and fatique, worst of all - eye bags ! Yeah, vanity .

It's so unbelievable that I was the first to reach office - 7.30 AM ! So proud of myself =x

~

It has came to a point to realise that as we age, our priorities change with our needs and plan.
I'm registering for my Bachelor programme in next January or February, tentatively starting in April. I'm executing my long-planned exercise routine, to live out my youth years in shape. I'm picturing my career route, in preparation for my next phrase in life.

However, it's also time to take time out and appreciate people around you before it's too late.

I have a mother who stands outside the house to watch me board the bus to office every morning and waves and do all sorts of actions, cook and buy the things we requested that is within her limits,
I have a father who checks the door every few moments to see if I'm home yet, promised that he will take me back home if my future husband were to bully me.
I have a sister who worries and cry for me to stop when she doesn't wish for me to be hurt in an on-going fight.
I have a brother who stands up for family members who are suffering from injustice or bully within his limits.
I have a best friend who understands me, share simliar interests, able to fart in her face, piss her when I'm testing her patience during music lessons, and tells me that I can never be replaced.
I have a partner who promises and we dream of a future together, he feels for me and cultivates a habit to care and think for me in almost every situation.

Life is too great.

Crazy period .

2010-09-16T10:07:00.004+08:00

Received an SMS from Kendra :
"Hi the registration for Feb & Mar practical exams is opening on 20 Sept. Let me know if you want to register"

faints . I just had my grade 3 practical exam on 30 Jul !

Falling sick again . Better now than later. My bulky workload is coming again and I would need that voice of mine, badly.

~

How I missed those days, is it gone for good? Everything has changed - from you, from myself and between both of us.

An experience that one would not forget for life.

2010-08-23T09:59:00.005+08:00

Feels like facing an important examination - countdown to the projected date, increased heartrate, tired, lack of sleep, reading up on the topic, recounting the experience.

Wanted so much to swim, but no, not during 7th month. Wanted so much to run on the treadmill, but say hi to endless work and violin practices. Mid Sep is coming again, and I'm expecting another huge load of signings to oversee. I'm hoping that I can close the case by end Oct. Might have to postpone my Violin lessons and tighten my purse strings for cab after OT. Oh, and I would need to spend a Saturday half-day for OT.

Waiting so ever anxiously for payday on Wed. I have lost track on what I have spent. Yes, I'm eating into my planned savings for studies. Yet I still have lots of stuff to buy and do.

Wanted so much to shop with Peng @ New Look, online shoppings and sprees, again.

Eyeing at Samsung Galaxy Beam. I shall own a set on 28 Sep. x)

Currently tuning in to the following:
`Cry Eye by Son Dam Bi, I don't want to miss a thing by Yuna Ito, My date with a Vampire 3 theme song in canto, Wedding Dress by Taeyang.

P.S. I have just realised that the zodiac analysis in chinese is too accurate.

BoA – QUINCY

2010-08-21T09:44:00.002+08:00

You’re driving me
Completely crazy, baby
I was conscious of it
But I didn’t want to admit it
I can’t ignore it anymore

It’s a crazy crazy love
A stark naked love
Love descends upon us both
It’s a crazy crazy love love

I know some nice boys
And I have friends I can trust, baby
But the only one
Who makes me happy is you

I have a feeling that screams out you’re gonna change my world

It’s a crazy crazy love
When you’re around
I can be a girl nobody’s ever seen before

It’s a crazy crazy love love
In the entire world, you alone are
Boy boy boy my boy
Oh, lock on me
Bear witness to this passion

It’s a crazy crazy love
You’re the one I’m feelin’ for
Love descends upon us both
It’s a crazy crazy love
Turn the undercurrent into love

You’re much hotter than you know
Such a sexy sexy boy boy
Crazy crazy love
A stark naked love
Please time, stop with this kiss
It’s a crazy crazy love love

Falling in love with this song. Read some report that BoA dances to this song when she's feeling down o.O

20 August 2010

2010-08-21T09:36:00.003+08:00

What if, ..
And what if, ..
And and what if, ..

Nah, it's time to practice what I preach.

And it's time to eat positive end of Energizer batteries and start working on it.

`20 August 2010

I didn't wish him a Happy Birthday. Neither had I talked to him since Sunday. I didn't worry for him when I heard that he is experiencing giddiness. And I didn't feel bad.

I feel blissed, .. finally.

2010-08-17T14:01:00.003+08:00

I still remember the scene where I was in office, feeling blissed to have a best friend, someone who appreciates me, a family that I can count on, a stable job and life. Life is just, close to perfect and I'm contented. But this feeling was gone soon after.

♥ started to act weird.

~ Shall not elaborate on details. After what we have been through, I believe we have realised that we are just too deeply involved ! *runs*

Recalling the episode was too much to bear, and I broke down once and for all without intenting for it though.
(sorry I kinda soaked your fav tshirt with my salt. But I guess that's still some romantic business? xD)

When I started to feel oh-my-life-is-back-to-normal-and-getting-better, someone just wants to spoil it:
Hi Daddy, I shall not talk or answer your calls, and you shall not receive any birthday greeting till that bitch decide to attain enlightenment and slap you awake .

P.S. It's you people that made my life meaningful and keeps me going. Thank you and I'm going all out for you too. *bangs fist onto left chest*

P.S.2. HA . 9 months of practice and I was 3 marks away from merit for Grade 3. Time for a small celebration ! If only I had better control of my nervousness ._. Anyway, say Hi to Grade 4 exam registration probably in next Feb !

When will these end?

2010-08-09T21:51:00.002+08:00

Almost everything is in a mess. I know that I'm choosing to be negative, but I just need to vent it off by being this way, just once.

I tried, maybe I didn't try hard enough, or you chose to disregard my words and efforts. Till now, I couldn't understand enough of what made you feel that way. I have been seeing comments like "maybe we shouldn't be that close in the first place". Any idea how that hurts? I inferred that you regretted about the bonding we have shared, just because you don't want to feel this way now. All these arose from lack of trust and communication which shouldn't be happening.

I treasure our relationship and having him would not change our status. I have hardly any idea left to make you realise that I'm still here, and stop pushing me away; It is hurting me as much.

We are grown-ups. If you think that I couldn't handle the new change or additional role at this stage, I should reflect on what makes you think of me that way. Or have I not opened up enough to make you realise that I have grown?

Please place yourself in my shoes - how would you want me to behave if we were to switch our situation? I would feel happy for you, and I shall continue my life. Relationship is not about possession. Humans are social creatures and expected to take on multiple roles in different stages of life. You may think that it's right for you to behave or deal with this in your way. I don't. Everyone is entitled to their own opinions, but do think of how it's affecting others. Especially so in the case of an eight-year old relationship being challenged.

I'm tired of this as much as you do. Compare then and now. Nothing has really changed, except that you are thinking that I'm placing him over you, or you wanted me to do so and you went on thinking that we no longer share the same closeness.

I still pig in bed, and we used to cancel plans. It's different now that you have friends that join in the plan and it appeared that I 'aeroplaned' you.

We have our own misconceptions and the above might incorrectly reflect of how you are feeling or thinking now. But this is what I think about the whole episode. If we don't have any open communication any sooner, our relationship might end this way which I do not hope for this to happen - I believe you do too.

Treasure yourself, and meditate in the right mind but not sinking further in misconceptions. There is always a better way of handling things and your stressors.

I remember fondly of your proud statement - "8 years and we are still going strong :D"

Clubbing ? No thank you.

2010-08-08T01:58:00.003+08:00

Hmm, banban and I joined Peng and gang @ Powerhouse last night.
Music is okay, but the environment is enough to drive both of us out. Banban shared later that some idiot was trying to bang his dick in my ass but I didn't even realise it. One big possible explanation - he has no dick at all. :D Oh, and felt sorry for banban's hands (in need of hand scanitizer) for protecting my butt x.x

Saw ex-sec schmate in the group. She was merely staring hard at me, twice. First stare when I approached the table, and second at the dancefloor. Well, 5 years is enough to transform anybody.

I expected some real dancing, but no - it's seeing a bunch of people banging with same gender, shaking, sexual stimulation that anyone can get away with it.

Thank you, but it's just so not my style :) <3 hiphop :D

P.s. I just so wanna dance. Polishing my moves.

Needs a break

2010-07-28T23:37:00.002+08:00

I'm yearning for a break from work and everything else. However, my work's peak period is coming and I'm so not looking forward to it.

I couldn't wait for my exam to be over on this Friday morning, yet I don't feel prepared enough. Work is taking fair too much of my time for anything else.

~

Will it stay true and lasting? I don't know. I'm starting to develop thoughts of the future, though it might be too early or pessimistic of me. I know that I'm not, and I was trained to develop positive thoughts; without actions, change is impossible.

It's time to thank the beneficial courses that I have attended and people that I have interacted with.

Time

2010-07-27T18:05:00.004+08:00

Just finished a 2-day course on Communication and Relationship Management. Well, I felt that I have wasted one day of my work on that; the course duration could have been shorter !
Anyway, I have learned interesting medical stuff and experiences through the sharing by other participants.

~

I hope that time will sort out your thinking and misconception about us. I'll still be there for you, as always.
There's no need to put up a front when I am able to see through you. As insensitive as I might be, but years of company has trained me well enough.
I just don't get it. What more should I do to re-assure you that nothing will be changed between us. My heart aches when I think about you when you are alone. My instinct might have failed me, but something just isn't right, yet.

3 July 2010

2010-07-18T01:51:00.002+08:00

Happy 16th day anniversary <3

What have gone wrong?

2010-07-08T14:29:00.003+08:00

Is it something that I have done, to make you feel that way. Or are you not referring to me?
Seems like the other. If it is, I sure am feeling the same way as you are.

Talk to me?

Yanni - Toccata and Fugue, J.S.Bach

2010-06-06T15:24:00.001+08:00

So, tired.

2010-05-05T00:53:00.002+08:00

Had a haircut last evening by Yangyang, Kimage. Well, I realised that I'm not the kind of customer that hairstylist would love. Why? - I would only start being all excited or love my newly cut hair like 30 mins after. :X

Ever since I completed the huge administration for my work, I have been longing for home and personal time. This is healthy and yet unhealthy. The best thing is, my drive only comes in the evening. I thought that my night owlness have changed to the morning bird. I was wrong. JIU MING AH~

- I am inspired by indian instruments. That might be on my list after violin. LOL.

What You Don't Know by Jonatha Brooke (Dollhouse theme)

2010-04-10T15:06:00.000+08:00

What you don't know won't hurt you
Maybe the lies are true
Try to remember, try to forget
Those yesterdays bleeding through

You'll never see me coming
You'll never know my name
Try to remember, try to forget
But you'll never be the same

I could do anything
I could go anywhere
I could be anything
To anyone tonight

I could do anything
(just let me sleep for a little while)
I could go anywhere
(just wanna sleep for a little while)
I could be anything
(just let me sleep for a little while)
to anyone tonight

I'm already going
I'm already gone
There's a stranger in my place

You'll never find me
But I'll get along
Cause the angels know my face

Being random

2010-01-31T14:13:00.002+08:00

Was clearing up the tapes in the afternoon. And Frog bought a new 2-inch boots ! There she is, taking photos of her new addition and my mom's clothes. Well, her move is being defined as "IRRITATING" and "CRAZY MOO" in my dictionary. Uh, played around in her boots and wow, I can jump around in 2inch ! :X I couldn't say the same for normal 2 inch though :\

~

Avril Lavigne's recent canon commercial got my attention. Loves her hair, makeup, song, .. everything ! @.@
Wiki about her and kinda surprised by her achievements . Annual income of USD12 mil? Say "Go to hell" to thoughts like "argh, I need to save for a year to get these"! ROARS.

Anyway, I was curious to see her live performance and saw her special scene of band performance in Sabrina, the Teenage Witch. That was the first book series that drove me crazy in my pri school days. And, following up next is Gossip Girls :X

Uh, then I clicked "Britney Spears in Sabrina" in the video list. Missed her old days. She was performing "You drive me crazy!" Reminded me of the days when I played her CD in my room and going crazy about the songs. Rofl, and that was almost a decade ago ! x.x

P.S. Surfing around youtube and more determined than ever to master the full dance of Boa's Eat You Up and Jeon Hye Bin's 2 AM. See my crazy move !

Dry, dry eyes ! ARGH .

2010-01-20T00:17:00.002+08:00

My eyes are getting dryer, dryer, and DRYER. Ended up with temp pain relief when I close my eyes for even few seconds.

Experienced blurry vision while waiting for Peng's iphone screen protector to be ready @ AMK yest. SO scary !

My dry eyes condition worsen in office today. Maybe it's due to the environment. Even eyedrops prove to be useless. Hmm. Checked SNEC website on charges and more info on dry eyes condition. Gonna visit staff clinic for referral letter to SNEC ! The subsidised rate is more than halve of the private rate ! $.$

Tried blinking nonstop, but doing so doesn't seem to help to ease my discomfort. Exploring lasik next year. My colleague shared of her joy when she finally wakes up with CLEAR vision -.- Uh, that's one motivator. Moreover, there are instalment plans available :) No more contacts !

P.S.: Attended an evening seminar with colleague today. It's a free seminar sharing on money-making tips relating to internet marketing by Jaz Lai. Well, learnt a few tips about attracting traffic to your website. Had thoughts of opening online shop selling pastry. But my colleague shared that this needs licensing and it cannot be prepared from home x( *dream shatters*

Well well, checked with Peng and she's interested in opening online sprees o.o well, mainly to satisfy our shopping desires too. LOL. Shall try to work out all these :)

Money no enough ! $.$

It's 2010 !

2010-01-01T20:09:00.003+08:00

It's 12:00 AM. I flip open my phone,

10 年 01 月 01 日

I remember the days when I wake up for school, for work.. It's 2010 !

Oh well, well, it's 2010 ! A reason to kick-start everything on my to-do list. To renew everything !
Not to forget, melbourne trip with Peng in Jul ~ x) Informed my supv about this through casual conversation :X Shall devote time and read up on this soon .. xD

New Year resolution - jian fei jian fei !

went for facial yest. Though the back message eases my neck pain, but my neck was somehow bruised by the silly massage x.x Heh, realised my pain treshold is high. Hates extraction !

Crosses fingers that my face will be cleared after all these pain x.x

Australia !

2009-12-29T03:39:00.003+08:00

Couldn't wait for the trip to Australia . At the very same moment, many thoughts are running through my mind - I need to spend on sooooo many things. I need to try sooooo much stuff.

I want to ..
buy a better violin
take up hiphop lessons
take up tennis lessons
take up tango
swim more frequently
jog!
study x.x

I'm at a loss on what should I do in the future. I have thoughts of becoming a full-time performer, but I kind of love office job. Yet, I have to satisfy my shopping desires ! Humans, can never be contented.

Thoughts on my job

2009-12-22T00:19:00.004+08:00

It has been long since I last blogged.

Nothing great has happened lately, except that I started to dread working late ! Well, that's a good thing though. I've learnt to perform tasks with higher sense of urgency. Of course, that reflected well on my work efficiency for going off on time or not one of the last few.

Strangely though, this kicked off after my career conversation with my Supervisor and Manager. Ha! No doubt that kinda spiked me a lil, that my bosses are noting of my frequent OTs. Also, one and half years of OTs are enough ! I couldn't believe that I started this job at an age of 18, and entered 20. My youth ~.~

Joined my company in Feb 08. Learnt plenty of things, and have nice colleagues and supervisors. Practically learnt stuff through lots of wall-bangings. Well, I guess I'm the 1st greenhorn that learn things through tons of mistakes and got famous for that ._. That was one of my concerns that got me into thinking of job-hopping. Well, I concluded that it will be endless if I were to change job just to have a brand-new image. Uh, silly thoughts.

During this period, I have thoughts of job-hopping - for a better-paying job. Humans, are greedy. However, I started to love the job and colleagues. When I surf the job-search websites and browsed through job advertisements, the job scopes are plain b-o-r-i-n-g. I feel a great sense of achievement when I update my resume. Rofl. It is such a LONG list. Well, the rest is history. I'll be in the job for 2 years in this coming Feb. And I'm expecting my life's first promotion in July ! Dearest Manager, you better keep your promise, or you'll find yourself sneezing and falling upon my swears and curses.

~ ~

Uh yes, I had my first violin lesson on 18 October 2009. Thanks to Peng for sourcing the best deal even @ 10 PM. Ha! Well, my teacher is patient and starting to be critical. :X I can see her head shaking through the corner of my eye via mirror when my notes are of inaccurate pitch :X Currently, struggling with Grade 3. Argh. Not forgetting my poor fingers that suffer from blisters from daily practice. Well, and I'm thankful to my family for being so-forever tolerant to my playings (hey, not that it's awful. Just that they couldn't even understand the pieces that I'm practising. Lol)

My First Violin

2009-10-11T23:36:00.003+08:00

Got my first (Suzuki) violin @ $239.20 with Peng from Bishan J8 Christofrori on 10102009.

Well, gonna learn tuning & fixing my bow tomorrow ! Read up on tuning, and figured out an easy way to memorize the tuning pegs.

D A

G E

ahaha "DA GE ! " ._______. I shall use my talent in lameness to help memorizing the notes. *crosses fingers*

Peng helped to sound out for affordable private violin teacher through few-months-old Straits Time Classified. Lol, I guess the advertisement cost is worth it ! For that there are still people like us browsing through old papers for random things. Meow.

Am excited for my first violin lesson! Hilarious of Peng to address herself as my mom, Mrs Ng, when conversing with the contact persons. So, mama, I'll be waiting to hear from you with regards to the confirmation of my 1st lesson and teacher! :X

Lots of plans ..

2009-08-10T21:19:00.001+08:00

MsBusy has lots of plans in mind ..

Learn violin (and tau-gey theory *faints*)
Polish Guzheng skills
Bachelor in Human Resource Management (L> Sponsors !)
Learn hip-hop

Money, money .. All these needs money !

P.S. Needs more time for gym, swimming, and reading ! where's my work-life BALANCE !

(Yeah, what a nice way to put it; Work-life "Harmony") *throws rotten eggs @ that person who said this*

Trying hard to get a life!

2009-08-01T18:54:00.003+08:00

Have been working as late as 12midnight for the past week. And my company's not paying well!
Hmm, but I like my job though.

~

Scary thoughts suddenly came to my mind. What should I do if my parents were to develop critical illness? My mom is not being insured, whereas I'm not sure of my dad's insurance policy. I want to pursue my bachelor studies. I don't think that I'm able to commit my time and money at this moment. Hmm, we shall see.. :)

Typing speed test xD

2009-08-01T18:53:00.001+08:00

91 words

Typing Test

Handwriting wizard

2009-07-11T23:32:00.001+08:00

This personality profile is based on the writing of Wendy Ng created at the website: Handwriting Wizard.com - Handwriting University's Official automated personality report creator based on standardized basic personality traits as taught through Handwriting University's Certification Level Program.

Wendy uses judgment to make decisions. She is ruled by her head, not her heart. She is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see her as unemotional. She does have emotions but has no need to express them. She is withdrawn into herself and enjoys being alone.

The circumstances when Wendy does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets her mad enough to tell her off, she will not be sorry about it later. She puts a mark in her mind when someone angers her. She keeps track of these marks and when she hits that last mark she will let them know they have gone too far. She is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All her conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. She is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, she has poise.

Wendy will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. She would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, she will show her love by the things she does rather than by the things she says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because she feels her mate should already know. The only exception to this is if she has logically concluded that it is best for her mate to hear her express her love verbally.

Wendy is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to her, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of her sound judgment. She will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. She will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and she will always ask "Is this best for me?"

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Wendy doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Wendy will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!

Because Wendy has sharp needle pointed 'm' and 'n' humps, she has a very sharp mind. She instantly sizes up situations, making instant decisions. She thinks and evaluates circumstances very rapidly. Many people with this type of mind are geniuses, thus she may be seen as highly intelligent. Wendy is often irritated by slow talkers or slow thinkers. If she drives, she gets irritated by slow drivers in the fast lane. She quickly becomes bored when being taught on the level of the slowest student in class. She may be on problem number three when the rest of the class is on problem one. Wendy is curious and very active. In fact, in school she might have been a trouble maker because she thought so much faster than the other kids, she finished her work first, thus having plenty of time on her hands to make trouble!

Wendy is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Wendy basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.

Wendy is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

Wendy has a very unusual lower zone y loop. If the data input is correct, Wendy's y or g is large and opens up to the left side of the page. This is not a common trait, but the implications are very interesting. As you begin to study handwriting analysis, you will learn any loop indicates imagination. This lower loop indicates the amount of imagination Wendy has regarding sex and physical things. So, her lower zone stroke is large, so her sexual imagination is large and open. Furthermore, because the loop is incomplete and extends to the left, this indicates a particular fascination with certain aspects of sexuality that have not been fulfilled, yet. In a nutshell, Wendy is open to some very new ideas sexually and is willing to try anything once.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Wendy has left some white space on the left side of the paper. Wendy fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion moving the entire writing rightward as she moves down the page. If this is true, then Wendy has a healthy relationship to the past and is ready to move on. The right side of the page represents the future and Wendy is ready and willing to get started living now and planning for the future. Wendy is leaving the past behind and moving on to what she perceives as an exciting and enticing future.

Acknowledgement: http://www.handwritingwizard.com/report.php?id=37719

Wondergirls - Nobody

2009-07-05T23:07:00.002+08:00

Addicted to Wondergirls' Nobody. Learning the dance moves. Lols! XD

Time no enough!

2009-06-15T21:51:00.004+08:00

My workload is piling, .. that leads me to eating snacks in office and late dinners.. Spending more on transport (i.e. taxi!) and sitting for longer periods at my desk. OMG. When is this going to end?

Misses the gym and pool. :(
Not enough time to run personal errands (omg. I've been wanting to go back to the optics shop to settle my specs that I bought in Jan 09. Wore approx 3 times since, due to the silly hurting material on my nosebridge and ear)
Have been wanting to go for threading and eyebrow trimming (they closes @ 9 pm!)
Need time to shop for zw's bday present. No idea what to get too!
Need time to analyze Boa's EIEN and complete Eat You Up moves X)

And where am I right now? IN THE OFFICE!

Just wanting to spit things out. Uh. And I'm not feeling any better though.

I realise that I can't stand my untidy eyebrows after getting a nice trim @ AMK Forever Young Beauty Salon. Hmm.. In need of neatly trimmed eyebrows to go well with eyemakeup, don't I? Weirdo with untrimmed eyebrows and neat mascara? NO WAY! =S

My colleague's going to Korea this Fri to attend Ha Ji Won's fan club session. Furthermore, it's a full-day event! So envious. How I wish Boa can hold something as long as that, .. Wait, .. NO MONEY. ROFLs. @@ *Yearning for a good rest..

Shopping!

2009-06-14T19:39:00.002+08:00

Loves shopping :X silly victoria's secret. the babydoll top that I wanted is backordered till Aug 09. ROARS!

Grats Peng to have shedded so much weight! Aja aja! xD Don't skip meals ._.

Yearning for a break, and waiting real hard for my next pay =\ Overspent way too much! Ate into 1k savings. omg..

Swim swim~~

2009-06-06T15:16:00.003+08:00

went to sengkang swimming complex with Peng last afternoon. Swam for 3 hrs. rofls. Went back home with healthy-feeling spine, better toned arms!

To my dismay, I woke up with an ever-aching back. That isn't what I expect.

Going for a swim with Peng again tomorrow morning. Time to chiong again! Ha.. Peng, no room for slacking! X)

Astrology Personality Analysis

2009-05-16T22:36:00.001+08:00

Quite accurate .. Esp for "Determination". I almost break the machines in the gym.. :O

Scorpio

That Poker Face
Let’s pick up where we left off with Pluto. Remember Pluto’s icy exterior? Well, in Scorpio that icy glaze is perfected. No single other zodiac sign has a better poker face than an individual with a heavy influence of Scorpio signs in their charts. This is partly due to the fact that Scorpios almost never sweat when it comes to crunch time. They also don’t blink. We know it sounds crazy, but it’s true. To get an accurate impression of this, think of some reptiles, like an alligator or a lizard. All of these animals fall under Scorpio’s domain. Have you ever seen an alligator sweat?

Intuitive
They say that the eyes are the windows to the soul, and when you look at a Scorpio’s eyes, you may be tempted to believe that’s true. In Cancer, the eyes are deep and soulful. In Pisces, they're large and compassionate. In Scorpio, they are deep, mysterious and mesmerizing. These eyes work in tandem with Scorpio’s penchant for mystery and the unexplained. Intuitive and thought provoking, the piercing hypnotic gaze of Scorpio seems to just “know” things that others don’t seem to pick up. A great Scorpio gift is the ability to tune into the “feel” of the atmosphere, and then, in an almost magical way, predict what will happen next.

Determined
Watch a Scorpio run at the gym and you’ll see another key trait: determination. Scorpios appear oblivious to others as they go about their business. This is because Scorpio’s are never in competition with others, not for money, not for beauty, and certainly not for physical perfection. No, Scorpio’s determined nature is made all that more intense because they are in competition with themselves.

E-shopping

2009-05-10T21:51:00.001+08:00

Addicted to foreign brands. Lost faith in local merchandises. *shakes head*
Continues e-shopping~! XD

Guzheng Class

2009-05-03T21:01:00.002+08:00

It has been 6 months since I last touched my guzheng.

Called Bishan CC for guzheng class. Was told that 10 sat sessions will be @ S$181.90. Has to be assessed by the instructor (Mdm Yang Xia) before signing up. Hmm.. After ending the call, I recalled that I have to work for 1 sat every 3 sats! Called Bishan CC again, and was told that there'll be no makeup class unless it's being cancelled by the CC due to unavailability of the instructor or if a public holi falls on that particular sat.

Practised for 2 hrs earlier. Well, quite pleased that I can still remember bits and pieces of 战台风. That cut down on memorizing.

That shall be the piece I'm playing for the assessment.

Went to the gym this afternoon. 30 mins for 0.5kg loss. Woots :X Well, it's against my principle to weigh more than my beloved.

Hmm. Planning to lose 20kg by my 20th bday!

VS heels x.x

2009-04-25T17:07:00.002+08:00

OMG. So nice x.x

Victoria Secret's zig zag wedge sandal priced @ USD89.

Great..

Burning out, ..

2009-04-05T21:26:00.003+08:00

Left office near midnight last fri with my colleague.
Left office near 11pm yesterday (yes, that's right, it's sat).

I managed to clear outstanding work, and I guess I'm able to go home much earlier on this coming tues..
ahem, .. I'm on leave on Mon - it's my mom's 54th bday! My day is all hers! Well.. almost x)

Scorpios are easily jealous and possessive.. Oh my. How true is that.
Are you the one? Or is it just a desire? It's a sin..

Let's leave "that" aside, time to hit the pool tomorrow! :)

Lol Peng, I was pondering over which is the day(s) to apply AL on. Because I'm sure that there WILL be a party just for your bday. HA! Now I know.. :X

Classes! :)

2009-03-28T17:14:00.002+08:00

Checked onePA website on classes conducted by Community centre/club.

Interested in the following:
- Guzheng (intermediate) @ Bishan cc
Hmm. to call and check on vacancies in Mid april.. Class is currently ongoing. Conducted by Yang Xia. Has a positive impression of her, as Serangoon Sec once engaged her as Guzheng Ensemble instructor for a short period.

- Elementary Korean (stage 1) with Frog o.o

- Tennis @ Kampong Glam cc, Beach Road

- Hiphop (basic) . meow. :x
Frog took up 10 sessions MV dance course and failed the exit test. Rofl. She refuses to take up this class with me. Ha.

Poem: Crabby Old Woman

2009-03-21T18:24:00.004+08:00

When an old lady died in the geriatric ward of a small hospitalnear Dundee, Scotland , it was believed that she had nothing left ofany value.

Later, when the nurses were going through her meagrepossessions, they found this poem. Its quality and content soimpressed the staff that copies were made and distributed to everynurse in the hospital.

One nurse took her copy to Ireland. The old lady's sole bequest to posterity has since appeared in theChristmasedition of the News Magazine of the North Ireland Association for Mental Health.

A slide presentation has also been made based on her simple, but eloquent poem. And this little old Scottish lady, with nothing left togive to the world, is now the author of this 'anonymous' poem winging across the Internet.
______________________
Crabby Old Woman

What do you see, nurses.. What do you see?
What are you thinking.. When you're looking at me?
A crabby old woman...Not very wise,Uncertain of habit,.
With faraway eyes?Who dribbles her food ... And makes no reply.
When you say in a loud voice.. 'I do wish you'd try!'
Who seems not to notice.. The things that you do.And forever is losing ..
A stocking or shoe?Who, resisting or not,..
Lets you do as you will,With bathing and feeding, .. The long day to fill?
Is that what you're thinking?.. Is that what you see?
Then open your eyes, nurse,.. You're not looking at me.
I'll tell you who I am .. As I sit here so still.
As I do at your bidding,. As I eat at your will. I'm a small child of ten..
With a father and mother,Brothers and sisters.. Who love one another.
A young girl of sixteen.. With wings on her feet.
Dreaming that soon now .. A lover she'll meet.
A bride soon at twenty, .. My heart gives a leap,
Remembering the vows.. That I promised to keep.
At twenty-five now,.. I have young of my own,
Who need me to guide .. And a secure happy home.
A woman of thirty, .. My young now grown fast,
Bound to each other.. With ties that should last.
At forty, my young sons.. Have grown and are gone,
But my man's beside me.. To see I don't mourn.
At fifties once more, .. babies play around my knee
Again we know children, .. My loved one and me.
Dark days are upon me, .. My husband is dead,
I look at the future, .. I shudder with dread.
For my young are all rearing.. young of their own,
And I think of the years.. And the love that I've known.
I'm now an old woman.. And nature is cruel,
Tis jest to make old age.. Look like a fool. The body, it crumbles, ..
Grace and vigor depart,There is now a stone..
Where I once had a heart. But inside this old carcass..
A young girl still dwells,And now and again, .. My battered heart swells.
I remember the joys, .. I remember the pain,
And I'm loving and living.. Life over againI think of the years..
All too few, gone too fast. And accept the stark fact.. That nothing can last.
So open your eyes, people, .. Open and see,
Not a crabby old woman; .. Look closer......see, .....ME!!

Remember this poem when you next meet an older person who you mightbrush aside without looking at the young soul within.....we will all, one day, be there, too!

P.S. I read this poem in the office, and cried. It spells the life of a woman (and human in general) and no other literature could better depict my perspective of Life.

Suntec IT show Mar 09

2009-03-15T21:09:00.002+08:00

Squeeeeeeeeeeeeeze ..
And squeeeeeze.

It was so crowded almost everywhere Frog and I go.

In the bus;
Queue for escalator;
Squeeze with the visitors of the IT show;
Waited for 2nd round of the lift;
Human jam in the whole area from at least 10 shops away to the escalator to city hall MRT; and
common waiting issues like looking for seats @ Carl Jr.

Froggie got Compaq Presario CQ40 @ $999 that comes with 1 year international warranty and the following:

Free upgrade to 4 GB RAM (yes, they input that RAM on the spot, and I pity that Staff who does that and couldn't afford to rest. His fingers were tembling o.O
Free notebook bag and optical mouse
Free 2nd & 3rd year local warranty.

The meal is worth the dollar value, but it's definitely NOT worth for the extra pounds that will follow you till your next visit to gym.

Thinking of dragging Peng to Carl Jr. But I believe the food ordering will end up like this;
1 burger set meal - upsize for the sake of the cup size.
Food - I bao gaoliao
Drink - Peng will love the free flow

Lols.

Hectic ..

2009-03-08T18:04:00.003+08:00

Currently experiencing a headache.. It seems like the medication oil isn't working. Go hell to their formula! =\

Working even on a sunday. My executive alerted my supervisor that I stayed with her to finish up some stuff until 1230am on last friday. Well, my supervisor has mentioned time and again that she appreciated our commitments, but I do not really know what's on the mind of my big boss when she becomes aware of this.

My executive (L) attended a class on Performance Management for Supervisory staff, and related an incident to me.

The facilitator (F) raised a question for discussion during the
class:

F: What do you think about employees that often work late?
L: *thinks to herself* uh , I often work late.. to complete the neverending
tasks..
Participant 1: I dislike such employees!
L: *shocks*

L expressed, "It didn't occur to me that some Supervisors (to-be) dislike such employees.. Isn't hardworking and commitment a virtue?

Well, some bosses (like my supervisor) may empathize and understand our reasons for working late; our job tasks are simply too much for us to bear. However, there are some bosses that may think of you as inefficient and manages time poorly.

Who would want to suffer from work-life imbalance? No one does, and nor do we get paid for working overtime as we stay of our own accord. Neither do both of us make claim for taxi fare.

I'm taking it well, and has yet to entertain thoughts of leaving (ah, I have forgotten if I had, but it's not this. :x)

Hmm, .. continues working on my database.. with my headache still going..
roars.

Critical thinking and reflection.

2009-02-15T19:58:00.003+08:00

Catch Lifewatch @ Ch 5, every thur 9 - 9.30 pm. 6 eps remaining.. I'm being named "pervert" by my colleagues for enjoying the show. -.- It has always been my wish to watch documentary on internal human body. Hello, aren't you curious to find out how does it look inside? At least I got a better idea, and I'm hooked to find more of such documentaries.. Hmm. The frequent dealings with raw meat has trained me well, I guess. xD

Last weekend morning, I woke up with these thoughts;
Everyday, you live your life and pursue your desires; all wouldn't have been possible without your body working. How would you feel if your heart or brain were to stop functioning, out of a sudden? It's just like how the battery in a robot runs out. All else fades and eventually comes to a stop. At that point in time, I feel like I'm a puppet. I just don't know why, and began to wonder what's the point of living.

Few days later, I developed a deeper thinking; it's not how long you lived, but how much you made a difference to others' lives. Human generation is a continuous process; that's where we learn from history, inspired by those who are around and who have left us, ..

With that mindset, it made me analyze my decisions and actions for the second time. It definitely motivates my self to act on plans at a faster rate, improves my attitude towards life and work.

I'm taking into mind that it'll be the last day of my life, everyday. JUST DO IT! :O No deliberation is allowed.

Critical and realistic thinking helps, huh?

BoA - Eien (Eternity)

2009-02-15T19:46:00.003+08:00

New song by BoA. :) Addicted to this song. :O
"Eat You Up" moves are nothing when compared to this x.x

Birth month & Horoscope

2009-02-15T10:53:00.004+08:00

Was sort of housekeeping my yahoo email that was created in year 2001. Woots. I still remember that I created this virgin email account in HGM Library, every wednesday after school . Lol. The internet rate was $2/hr. 8 years back.. Hmm..

Found this really old email that says about your personality according to your month of birth:

MAY

Stubborn and hard-hearted / Strong-willed and highly motivated / Sharp thoughts / Easily angered / Attracts others and loves attention / Deep feelings / Beautiful physically and mentally / Firm standpoint / Easily influenced / Needs no motivation / Easily consoled / Systematic (left brain) / Loves to dream / Strong clairvoyance / Understanding / Sickness usually in the ear and neck / Good imagination / Good debating skills / Good physical / Weak breathing / Loves literature and the arts / Loves travelling / Dislike being at home / Restless / Not having many children / Hardworking / High spirited / Spendthrift

NOVEMBER
Has a lot of ideas / Difficult to fathom / Thinks forward / Unique and brilliant / Extraordinary ideas / Sharp thinking / Fine and strong clairvoyance / Can become good doctors / Careful and cautious / Dynamic in personality / Secretive / Inquisitive / Knows how to dig secrets / Always thinking / Less talkative but amiable / Stubborn and hard-hearted; If there is a will, there is a way / Determined; Never give up / Hardly become angry unless provoked / Loves to be alone / Thinks differently from others (yeah. violent thoughts most of the time -.-) / Motivates oneself / Does not appreciates praises / High-spirited / Deep love and emotions / Romantic / Uncertain in relationships / Homely / Hardworking / High abilities / Trustworthy; Honest and keeps secrets / Not able to control emotions / Unpredictable

Horoscope

Gemini

Turn ons: Gemini is a highly intellectual and versatile person. If you have a Gemini partner you have to match your wits with his wits to keep the zing in the relation. They want to be mentally stimulated so you have to be good in conversing. Your sense of humor will get you a permanent residence place in the heart of a Gemini. Be more communicative with them and if you are good in this then you will never know how hours pass by with you holding each other`s hand.

Turn offs: Geminis like to do many things at the same time so if unfortunately you are the types who is looking for stability you may get disappointed. Do not hold back a Gemini or you may lose him, as they are restless and need change in life constantly. You should try to adopt yourself with the ever-changing Gemini. Orthodox or conservative old fashion ideas are no-no in their dictionary. Change with the ever-changing Gemini and do not flow against the current.

Scorpio

Turn ons: Scorpios are full of passion and zest for life. They have tremendous drive that can involve you too. Tune in to their wavelength and you can enjoy the harmony and music in life with them. Scorpio`s are loyal and never forget a kind deed done by you. If you want to enjoy life with your Scorpio lover share their passion and intensity and you will be fascinated by how beautiful life can be with them.

Turn offs: Scorpios are very passionate and intense but they are also fiercely possessive and would like to possess your mind, body and soul. Do not let seeds of jealousy grow in them because then you may have to suffer agonies of jealousy and discontentment in life. Scorpio`s have explosive tempers be careful how you handle them. They never let anyone know what is going on in their mind till they strike and you may be caught unawares. Do not flirt around in the presence of your Scorpio lover.

How true. Lol.

Career Preview

2009-02-07T21:06:00.002+08:00

Was asked to help out at a Career Preview held @ WDA, NTUC tower @ Marina Boulevard. Was so tempted to eat the yong tau foo and teh. But, decided not to.. Peng's not around =\

Hmm. I guess I do have some interest as career advisor. :O

It's a sense of satisfaction that derived after the job seeker developed a better idea on his future. In addition, they take your ideas, information, perspectives into account; all these affect their views and decisions after the conversation ends.

Luckily it's only an hour of talking. Because, I'm basically talking as loud as I can, maintaining the tone, in order to make myself heard. There are like some 30 others conversing with the institutions' reps after the presentations ended.

One thing that left myself impressed was; my english standard is everchanging. -.- I face difficulties expressing myself using english in informal conversations; I need time to phrase, and I have that obvious non-english speaking tone.

The strange thing is, I shot my mouth off with all the sponsorship information and career advices without even needing to pause as long as I need in comparsion to information conver. Adding to it, I have slight angmoh slang -.- I believe that my vocal english standard only raises in the course of working. How sad. Ouch. :x

Mirror Mirror on the wall..

2009-02-07T18:49:00.003+08:00

Was on annual leave last wed afternoon. However, I was only able to leave my office at 240pm, earliest. Tied down with too many "urgent and important" and "important" tasks. Meh. THAT'S (working) LIFE.

No matter how hard I tried to analyse the bus routemap, I just couldn't figure out on the travel to Ikea alexandra via bus. The road name, bus services, all in a mess! The stupid streetdirectory failed on me. And so, I decided to stick out my hand for a taxi.

Purchased a length-mirror. Wakaka. My original idea was a dance studio style mirror; i.e. mirror as the wall. However, my mom raised STRONG objections. She said, it's 'bad' but couldn't elaborate. It's 'just baddddddddd'. Well, and so I settled on the widest length mirror I can get. wakakak xD Costs me $99. I chose 'black brown' for the wooden frame. Eyed a 'black brown' wooden tabletop, but it was temp out of stock and only available in another 1-2 months time.

Hmm.. Delivery charge of $50, another $8 for the 2 drill holes. Meh. And all that for a 15-min mounting service this afternoon. Ouch. Maybe I should start a furniture delivery service company. -.-

Now, I can hone my skills..

See my crazy move

Hmm. Mirror - downed. Now what's next on my Buying List.. =\ Ah. New desktop . IT fair in coming March. Uh. Don't think I'm getting it that soon. Cry, my lil bro. muahaha.

Chomp Chomp :x

2009-01-31T21:48:00.002+08:00

Ah Peng came to my office 2 days ago.
Meh. The fun part is, she kept insisting that we're real couple in front of my Sr Manager without realising it.
:O

My colleagues said, "horhor. She's going to ask you in for a counselling session soon :x"
Who cares . xD

Ah Peng intro me to Chomp Chomp @ Serangoon Garden. Wee. We ate so much. Well, it's the obvious that I ate more. Ha. Peng has a new term - Water balloon, and I, the Rice balloon o.O I can imagine the shape when it's completely filled o.O

We ordered sugarcane drink, satay, plain carrot cake, oyster omelete, sambal stingray and beancurd jelly. The quality is quite good, because it's freshly prepared and consumed shortly thereafter. Meh. But the smell that left on us simply reminded myself of the days @ Amos - except that I rather smell of cookies instead of oil and smoke, obviously.

Sinful foods. Tsktsk :x Time to visit the gym, on a regular basis. It has always been on my To-do list for YEARS.